I've had my moments. I've been so frustrated and stressed out that I wished I knew the number to the black market.But at this point in my life.. I'm half way satisfied. I'm pretty happy. I'm a little stressed, but nothing too major, and I can honestly say I wouldn't change my life for the world.
Being a mother is so important to me. It is so exciting, and fun. Everyday is an adventure. Getting to know a baby while it gets to know itself is sometimes daunting, or inconvenient.. but in the end it is so amazing. The days when I appreciate it I just feel so... cathartic.
There are days, though, where being a mom is the saddest thing in the world. Like the first day he was born and they just wheeled him away. It felt like there was a big empty hole in the pit of my heart.
Then there's the shots. OH GOD.. the shots. I don't know if it's just me, but I can barely stand it. It makes me cry just as hard as him. My stomach turns and twists and it just breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.
I have to take Walter to get shots tomorrow. The first shots I had to be around for. The second one's Scott took him to.
Now it's my turn, and my stomach is already turning.
Anytime you have to take your kids for any painful medical thing it sucks. As the mom they are looking at you with pleading eyes of "how can you let this be happening to me? Aren't you going to save me?!" So you hold their handsand know in your heart that you are really doing something good for them. And then you hug them and take them home and love them. You're a great mom Naomi! <3
ReplyDeleteAww.. thanks.
ReplyDeleteYou're so sweet.
I love you a lot!
<3