I'm feeling really crabby today and just totally burnt out on life, and motherhood. I have all of these ridiculous fears that my child is going to come out all messed up because I'm a big blob of disgusting and super overweight. I didn't even REALIZE how huge I was until they weighed me.

And now I basically hate myself. I can't starve myself because I have to consider the baby. I can't diet like I used to because, well, again with the baby.


And I just hate it.

I absolutely hate everything about this situation.

And there's nothing I can do to change it.


  1. If you are this concerned about your being overweight, I would suggest searching for an army-appointed nutritionist, or one that your army insurance covers. There are tons of things you can do to lose weight AND help the new baby grow well. I can also help you if you want; I am trying to eat well now, with this vegetarian thing and all that, as I now need to watch how I get my vitamins and proteins. You are smart about good and bad foods, and you CAN do this right!

  2. I also have low iron, the WIC lady thinks I may have pregnancy induced anemia..

    I'm just down and I feel like this baby is sucking the life right out of me, just like Walter did. I know I can eat right, and I do. It just makes me sad that I HAVE been focusing on eating right ever since we got up here.. and I still weigh as much as I do. I'll be fine.. I just need to..
    I don't know.

    Die or something.