2.07.2009

Icing on the peice of shit fuck your mother in the ass cake

Spanking is a drug to me. It gets me high, it makes me feel good, and without I would not be whole.

If enjoying having my ass beat on a regular basis (which my husband also enjoys) is going to ruin my marriage, something else was probably already going to.

Conflict is not all about passion, and passion is not all about conflict.

BUT HOW MANY WOMEN HAVE YOU SEEN HAVE A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN WHO NEVER GETS MAD! NEVER!

How do you live with someone who NEVER gets mad.

HOW?!

You don't.

So.. take your over opinionated ass and get the fuck off of my blog. Everyone worships and loves you because you present this lady like submissive little girl act, and it's cute.. and admirable. But I believe I remember reading a post about people sticking their opinions up other people's rears and it BOTHERING you.

I'm figuring this out, and I'll figure it out on my own.. and with the help of my husband.

So if you don't have anything NICE to say, then don't say anything at all.

~~:Just a little edit:~~

I didn't mean that my relationship lacked that nagging, bratting, nails on a chalk board conflict. No. I meant Scott never showed any care in the world for anything. He'd shrug it off and say 'what the fuck ever, right?'

Conflict right now, to me, is him expressing to me his feelings in a way that is beautiful to me. He has never loved me during discipline like this, he has never talked to me this way, or touched me this way (NOT sexually).

Spanking really is similar to a drug to me.

But discipline.. I take discipline seriously.

Its VERY personal to me, which is why I don't blog about it.

I'm moving tonight. I'm ridiculously sad. I broke a heart in the midst of having mine broken. I slipped and fell in the rain, twice, wearing nothing but booty shorts and flip flops because everything else was packed while I was sleeping..

and I'm moving.

Away from life as I know it. Away from my love, my friends, my family, my everything.

I'm having a really really bad night, and I just want to curl up into a ball and die.

I'm scared, shitless.

7 comments:

  1. Naomi, my comment actually came from the point of view of caring about you, a very young woman with a whole world of things you're trying to deal with. I know I shouldn't have said word one, and I know that sometimes I really lack diplomacy, and for that I sincerely apologize. If you and I were friends, if we knew each other in the real world, then maybe saying what I said would have made at least a little sense. A good friend can (and should) turn to someone they love and be honest with them when they see them doing something self-destructive. I hope your real world or on-line friends are brave enough and loving enough to do that for you. But of course you and I aren't friends, so I was completely out of line. Again, I apologize. I will now take my opinionated ass and get the fuck off your blog.

    Constance

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  2. I'm sending you a personal note because you have touched my heart. Blessing to you, please... you will be okay and you are NOT alone. I have to read back on your blog because I am a little unsure of exactly what's going on. Hang in there no matter what. Cleo

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  3. You are going to be okay Naomi...and I am here in Colorado waiting for you with arms open wide and a big heart ♥

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  4. Hi Naomi:
    I am very new to your blog...I didn't realize you were moving. It's very very stressful to move under the best circumstances. I hope your move goes very smoothly. And you love your new home.
    Take care
    AG

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  5. You'll be surprised at how this move changes your life for the better. Just give it a little while and have an open mind. And remember that bad moods are like a shitty pair of glasses, they make everything, past, present and future, seem shitty. The moods always pass.

    And as for Constance, I know that she does have a tendency to piss people off. But, as I'm sure you know, the things she says are brutally honest, but actually helpful.

    I am not going to squeeze myself into this conflict, I just wanted to give my 2 cents.

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